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I just found out someone else I know is pregnant, and immediately felt the pull...WHAT IS HAPPENING HERE????  I'm good with the one, I swear!  Biology is some powerful, mysterious stuff....

Which popular slang expression drives you nuts?

Not so much a pop slang, but done-to-death-business lingo:  "At the end of the day.." drives me NUTSSS!!! 

Goals:

Find peace with parenthood
Loose 30 lbs
Make some new friends
Be more patient/less bossy with Will
Appreciate everything that I have
Find some shred of fulfillment through work
Challenge myself more (more = at all)

I have been thinking about/planning on loosing a few lb's.  I gained a whopping 38 lbs while pregnant.  I lost 22-25 (it fluctuates) very quickly without trying, but haven't lost any more for over 2 weeks now.  SO, that means I need to actually try now.  I'd thought I would be super motivated to get started, but honestly, I am kind of in survival mode with a new baby.  Which means, it seems impossible for me to go above & beyond and be disciplined enough to start and stick to on a diet and exercise plan.  Half the time I forget/don't have time to eat breakfast, and then realize it's noon (or later) and I haven't eaten.  So of course I'm starving by then and  can't imagine I would turn to a salad when that happens.  I do eat pretty healthily during the day though, it's the nighttime when I go crazy with snacking.  Also, some days I do manage to get out for a walk with Emma & Finn, but not nearly as many as I'd like.  I had the idea that maybe I'd go for a run when Will gets home from work, but I'm usually to exhausted from the day!  Not to mention from my broken sleep.  But I really would like to trim down.  Before I got pregnant I was weighing the heaviest of my life, so I'd not only like to get down to my pre-pregnancy weight, but go further.  Ideally I'd like to loose 30 lbs from right now.  I need to figure out how to do this.  I was talking to Kristen today about all this.  I need a plan, like what I should be eating needs to be clearly spelled out.  She's offered to let me log in to her Weight Watchers acct and check out the meal plans.  I am not usually one for setting start dates like this, but thinking about starting tomorrow.  It being Jan 1st and all.   Maybe I could set a goal to loose the 13-16 lbs between now and the time I go back to work on Feb 12th.  

What's the best music documentary or concert film you've seen?

End of the Century: The Story of the Ramones - excellent! 

This was such a happy moment at our shower!  Kristen wanted to put her hand on my belly so she could one day tell my child, "That was you in there!"  As we're in the home stretch of my pregnancy, I am feeling so many things.  First, that it feels like we've been pregnant forever!  And that it is so different now than in the beginning.  I am actually about 99% ready for the baby to be here.  It's taken me every bit of these last 9 months to get to this point!  I am less scared about certain things, and more scared about others.  I wish I were more serene right now.  This is really bothering me.  The only thing keeping me from feeling totally happy and content is the negativity coming at me from people who are constantly focused on where they fit in my life, and subsequently my offspring's life.   Am very hopeful that I can sort this out, at least in my own mind.  If all else fails, am hopeful that once the baby is here, that will be my focus and not allow me to get distracted by or tolerate other people's bullshit.  Right now, my focus needs to be on the baby, my husband, myself, and our little family as a unit.  It is my primary goal to make sure we are happy and healthy.  I can't afford to be so concerned about other peoples' misperceptions or judgement of me/us.  This is not easy!  But as baby time approaches, I need to get better focused.     

What small act of kindness have you done in the last thirty days? 
Submitted by One Kind Act.  

Just today I cut out the wedding announcement of a coworker from the Sunday paper.  I don't even particularly like him all that much, so it would seem general kindness (or thoughtfulness?) was the motivator here. 

How many jobs have you had in the past five years? Where and what did you do? 
Submitted by M.  

Crazy - but I have had one job in the past five years.  My stock glamour answer for what I do is:  I am in marketing for a publishing company.  But direct mail marketing in newsletter publishing sounds less glamourous,  but is more accurate.  I will have my six year anniversary in October.  I have worked here twice as long as my last longest job held.  I never ever ever in a million years would have dreamed I would be here this long.